Unfortunately our pregnancy journey ended on Sunday and going by LMP was 8 weeks and 5 days.

Our journey so far:

5 weeks - spotting and slipped in the bathtub. Food aversion just not want to have anything other than clear chicken soup.

Went for a Private scan at myultrababy. Bean measurements: gestation sac diameter 9mm and yolk sac seen. Told to come back next week.

6 weeks - few more spotting (pink) here and there. More food aversion. Lost about 1kg.

Repeat private scan at myultrababy for extra £30 only due to previous scan.

Bean measurements: gestation sac diameter 13mm, yolk sac seen and fetal pole seen. CRL measured at teeny weeny 1.4mm. Told to get another scan perhaps in two weeks time to see more growth. Probably date 1 week back. So 5+5 instead of 6+5.

8 weeks - a little bleed of fresh red upon wiping on loo roll at 8wks 4days on Friday 20/9 I.e a month since our BFP. Rushed to private clinic at Harley Street (baby company) for a scan. Unfortunately was told by Sonographer that the pregnancy is not viable. Measurements were tiny still and even though there was a heartbeat it was faint at 52bpm and so expect to miscarry within a week. Cried our hearts out. The next day had more heavy bleeding. By Sunday morning I had bad cramps and heavy bleeding. Spent 7 hours at the A&E / early pregnancy unit in Whittington hospital waiting for Dr to attend to emergencies. Upon doing the scan, the Bean's heartbeat has already stop. Waited a couple more hours to be told of the available options. Unfortunately wasn't called back in for a procedure as promised. Not quite impressed.

Got my company health insurance to cover the Evacuation of Retained Products of Conception (ERPC) and was swiftly performed by my Surgeon Miss Atalla at Portland hospital on the same day on Monday after consultation at 12.30pm. Surgery was scheduled at 6.45pm and discharged at midnight.

So I guess the chapter closes on this one. Will try to recover both physically and mentally before embarking on our new journey.

It has just dawned on me that yay I'm indeed pregnant. The reason I say this is because on 13dpo (Monday 19th Aug) I had some spotting so I was convinced that I was out that cycle and even texted my husband to say - "we're out! :("

Week 4 started on 20 Aug the day I tested positive with the HPT! :)

Symptoms are: spotting and some cramps

Had a terrible spot on 4 weeks 5 days so was worried sick that day but decided to stay positive.

Continued to take Clearblue digital test and the reassuring thing was the reading changed from "2-3 weeks" to "3+ weeks" pregnant. I've read in forums that that indicates a surge in the hcg level from 200-2000 to >2000 which is amazing news after all those spotting !

Had my first antenatal check up with the community midwife on 27th August at the Whittington Hospital. They were very efficient. I sent in a self referral form on Weds 21st August, got a call from the midwife on Fri 23rd August and was seen on Tues 27th! Well impressed !!

So had my blood tests, urine tests and family history check etc done at 10.30am -12pm.

Continuing prenatal supplement and healthy diet. As mentioned previously I am not taking Pregnacare as it gave me some strange nausea and weird feeling. So have continued with Sanatogen mum-to-be. So far so good! It's got all the required vitamins in there so I'm gonna continue. You get 3 for 2 deals at Boots so that makes it quite affordable.

Weehee! Had a very unexpected BFP as I dipped my HPT into the little cup. Gosh still hasn't struck me that it had happened for cycle 4. Just as I was getting excited the cramps and bleeding dampen the mood a little. It's pinkish discharge with some cm. I've trawled through tonnes of forums to find out if this was a major problem.

I've included some photos (a lot of it can be quite disturbing and TMI) but I guess it's better more info than less as when I was researching there wasn't much images to help ease my worries.

From next post I will update week by week! Til then, lots of baby dust to you xx